Last night I had a visit from an old friend, one who I thought I had gotten rid of 8 years ago, one who has caused me so much trouble over my life, it was nearly ruined.
This old friends name is ‘Uncontrollable Pain.’
As many of you may know, this year has been BIG stress for me. I’m surprised at how my mutilated body has dealt with it, as stress is the biggest factor in it shutting down, but it hasn’t, until last night.
It decided to start the painful process of the past, the first time in 8 years.
I haven’t been meditating, I haven’t been practicing yoga, and I ate a Maccas wrap.
I’m looking at my first Christmas as a single parent, starting a new full-time job, finding a home to live within four weeks and moving to said home.
My stomach was starting to go hard as a rock, I had to stay standing as the acid was coming up from my stomach and making lying painful.
I knew what was next, the vomiting and diarrhea at the same time, the intense cramping, so painful it’s hard to breathe.
So I did my breathing exercises, didn’t work, I couldn’t belly breathe, my belly had already started knotting.
I listened to a meditation. Didn’t work.
I took an antacid. Didn’t work.
I massaged my belly. Didn’t work.
I remembered I once put DoTerra digestzen on my son’s belly when he was having problems. I sniffed it LOTS, and put 3 drops in my belly button, and fell off to sleep. 😌😌
Thank goodness for healthy options and knowledge.
When I got to this stage in the past, the cramps would take over me; I would have to go to the hospital and get morphine for the pain, an anti-spasm shot, and an anti-vomit shot. Thank you Mish Pope for introducing me to these oils.
All of this is my own fault.
Stresses in our lives are always going to be there; it is up to us to put in place the preventative measures so that when the s**t DOES hit the fan, we are prepared. We have a been in training for it, and we know how to play the game.
I KNOW what I ‘should’ have been doing to prevent an attack, and I’ve been slack. Well, not really, I’ve been busy.
But busy IS NOT AN EXCUSE.
You wouldn’t go into a race expecting to win without training.
Meditation is training for your mind.
Training for when things go wrong, in my case, when my mind is in a knot, so my guts go into a knot too.
I have been re-recording my meditations to send in my ‘meditation in a bottle’. This is one of them.
I’d like to share this one with you, as I think it’s very appropriate for this time of the year.
I hope it gives you some perspective and allows you to train yourself for calm.
If you would like to get more meditations, they are available here: http://bit.ly/meditationinabottle